ADDICTION

 Repeat the circle everyday I gotta start with the drink and a roll of tobacco

My life been dirty and crazy, and I don't wanna think

I look myself right in the mirror, and I don't even blink

Then I get angry, take the rest, and straight into the sink.

Dunno how to get over this

Alcohol and drugs ain't my friend, but I keep drinkin' 'cos these demon's are put, they roam and follow me round everywhere I go

It clouds my mind, soul and turns my heart cold,

But I keep drinkin' and smokin' 'cos it makes me feel like I'm not alone.

Slowly dieing internally, but pride and ego won't let me reach out

Staring at this bottle with a roll of baccy in my hand, havin' nothin' but hesitation and doubt

Don't wanna drink nor smoke, but these shit keeps calling me.

I gotta do better

I need to quit,

Set example for these kids 'cos they watching when I'm there, but I'm scared.

I've been chasing the man that I am when I start to drink

He's confident and don't give a damn watchu think

This world had beaten me down, and has pushed me right to the brink

I take a shot, blow my smoke Everytime 'cos man! it helps me escape.

I wanna talk to somebody, but I feel no one relates

No one cares 

I've lost my way, struggling with faith

I gotta take control, get hold of my wheel lest I get thrown off the deep end.

I got wasted 'cos I didn't wanna deal with myself

My thoughts get drowned, vision blurred

I keep drinkin' till I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted. 

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